🌿 What If It All Goes Right?

🧳 Packing & Overthinking

As I’m sitting here packing for my trip, excitement and anxiety are taking turns in my head.
What if I forget something?
What if I wrote my mom’s name wrong on the flight info?
What if something happens to my pup while I’m gone?
What if something happens to me?

It’s exhausting—how easily my mind can turn joy into a checklist of potential disasters.

🌺 Taking My Power Back

This trip means a lot to me. I’ve never been to Jamaica. I was supposed to go once before—with my ex—but the trip was canceled, just like everything else with him always was. So this time, I decided to go with my mom instead. It felt like taking my power back, showing myself and the universe that I will still go, still live, even if it doesn’t look the way I once imagined.

But now that it’s almost time to leave, that familiar part of me, the one that doubts, that expects things to go wrong; has started whispering again. The part of me that still doesn’t quite trust that good things can happen easily.

🌙 The Habit of Control

I’ve always been this way. I’m a Virgo Moon; I overanalyze everything. My therapist once told me I do it to maintain control. At first, I didn’t see it. But now I do. I play every possible scenario in my head, not to prepare, but to protect myself. If I imagine the worst, I can’t be blindsided by it.

But here’s the truth: all that mental preparation steals the magic from life.
It’s like building emotional armor when no one’s even swinging.

Instead of letting myself be excited, I numb the joy with worry. And when things end up going smoothly (which they almost always do), I realize how much I missed by not being present. The joy. The gratitude. The softness. The fun.

And honestly, it’s exhausting living like this.

🐾 What Luxe Taught Me About Fear

I was reminded of that watching my bernedoodle, Luxe. He’s scared of everything.
The sound of his food bowl moving, chairs, doors—literally anything. One day, as I watched him run away from his own reflection, I said out loud, “It must be exhausting walking around scared of everything.”

And then it hit me.
I do the same thing.
Mine just lives in my head.

It’s exhausting living in fear of everything, of what could go wrong, of what people might say, of how I’ll feel if I fail. Even my anxiety, the palpitations I’ve had, the tightness in my chest, they’re all my body begging for peace from my own mind.

🌤 Learning to Let Life Flow

So, this week—and hopefully, for the rest of my life—I’m choosing to live more in the moment. To stop being scared of everything.
Because life is short. And my fears today will be nothing compared to the regret of never really living.

As my girl Hannah Montana once said, “Life’s what you make it, so let’s make it rock.”
And now I get it. Life will always life; but it only rocks if I let it.

What are you scared of?
What fears are keeping you from the life you dream of?

Dodge the fear. Do it anyway. People will judge you either way, but at least you’ll be living.
Because one day, when all you can do is wish for more time, you’ll look back and realize:
the moments you prayed to relive were the ones you were too busy fearing to enjoy.

✨ A Gentle Reminder for your Weekend

This weekend, stop rehearsing disaster and start expecting ease. Uncertainty doesn’t always mean danger. You don’t have to prepare for joy to hurt in order to deserve it. Sometimes it’s the universe asking you to let life surprise you. Let good things happen without trying to predict their ending. Choose wonder over worry, just for today.

🌷 Thank You for Reading

If you made it this far, thank you for sharing this space with me.
I hope my words remind you that it’s safe to let life surprise you, that you don’t have to earn calm by expecting chaos.
You deserve to breathe deeply and believe everything works out for you, even if it doesn’t look like what you expected.

✨ Affirmation Set:

• I release my need to control every outcome; I am safe in uncertainty.

• I am allowed to experience joy without preparing for it to end.

• Ease is not the absence of effort—it’s the presence of trust.

• I am learning to let good things be easy.

• I do not need to rehearse pain to prove I can survive it.

• It’s safe to relax into the life that’s unfolding for me.

• I deserve to feel calm, even when everything is going right.

📝 Soft Return Reflection Prompts:

• Where in my life am I rehearsing disaster instead of expecting ease?

• What would it look like to let something good unfold without trying to manage the outcome?

• How can I remind myself that I am safe, even when I’m not in control?

• When I feel myself waiting for the “other shoe to drop,” what story from my past is being replayed?

• When things begin to go right, do I allow myself to receive it fully—or do I brace for loss as if joy is a setup?

Until Next Time 🌺