I Am the Room
🌙 The More I Achieve, the Less I Feel I Belong
The past few weeks have been a lot. Between work, life, relationships, and dog-mom duties (and I don’t know if all dogs are like this, but allergy season is the worst for mine), everything feels like it’s piling up.
But this week specifically? It had me losing sleep.
Not because anything huge happened, but because of the quiet self-talk I’m still working on. The things I’d never say out loud, but somehow still repeat on a loop inside.
I had an interview this week. For a role I already do—and more—on the daily. But somehow, I was anxious. I kept imagining how disappointed I’d feel if I didn’t get it. What if they asked something I didn’t know?
The more I thought about it, the more I wanted to back out.
The night before the interview, I couldn’t sleep. I even considered canceling. The thoughts were so loud:
You’ll fail. You’re not ready. Why even try if you already know the outcome?
But I showed up anyway. Put on my blazer and lip gloss. Pushed through.
And funny enough?
The interviewer said:
“You have extensive experience in this field—honestly, this might be a step down from what you’re currently doing.”
So, I might not get the position, not because I’m not enough... but because I’m overqualified.
And that got me thinking:
How often do I make myself smaller to soften the blow of potential failure?
How many things do I not even try, just in case I fall short?
The truth is, the interview was a breeze. But the anxiety beforehand was real.
I was terrified they’d ask a question that revealed what I subconsciously believe: that I’m not enough. That I don’t really belong.
Imposter syndrome is something I’ve carried my whole life.
And the wild part?
The more I achieve, the more I feel like I’m faking it.
Let’s unpack that, softly.
🪴How It Shows Up…
In Career:
Not applying for roles you’re more than capable of
Asking for less because you’re scared of seeming “too much”
Saying yes to things you don’t want to do just to prove you deserve your spot
In Relationships:
Accepting the bare minimum and calling it love
Overfunctioning to feel chosen
Confusing consistency with emotional availability
In Self:
Shrinking your voice when your power rises
Feeling guilty for rest, asking for help, or taking up space
Believing your softness makes you weak instead of powerful
🔅What I’m Learning to Shift
The common thread in all of these?
What I tell myself.
The stories I run on loop. The quiet assumptions about what I deserve.
This week, I told myself I wasn’t ready. That I wasn’t enough. And I almost pulled the rug from under me. But I didn’t.
And the truth? I’m more than enough.
I actually deserve more.
What a wild, freeing thought.
You don’t have to overperform to be worthy.
You don’t have to accept less than your heart craves.
You do have to listen to the part of you that believes there’s more for you.
Even when it’s quiet. Even when it’s scary.
That voice? That’s your higher self. Follow her.
đź’Ś A gentle reminder for your weekend:
What if you’re not an imposter?
What if you’ve just outgrown the spaces
that never expected someone like you to rise?
🌷 Thank You for Reading
If you made it this far, thank you for staying.
This post was stitched from pieces of my own softness, doubt, and truth.
And if it found you where you are—just know, I’ve been there too.
đź“ť Soft Return Reflection Prompts:
If I wasn’t trying to prove anything, how would I show up differently?
Is the way I describe myself rooted in truth—or in the version I think others will accept?
Where am I still performing confidence instead of practicing compassion in my self-talk?
🌺 Affirmation Set
I no longer shrink to fit into spaces I’ve already outgrown.
I am not a mistake. I am a mirror of the light I’ve been searching for.
I release the story that says I have to earn my place in the room—I am the room.
Even when doubt knocks, I stay close to myself. I don’t walk away—I choose me.
Until Next Time 🪷
